Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Starting with this

"I must learn to love the fool in me, the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries."- Theodore Isaac Rubin

Thursday, June 24, 2010

What Will Destroy Me

What will destroy me is this silence. right here. a silence that smells of this bed that i unconsciously made myself. It's filled with mothballs of my imagination and a chained fence to keep me away from the unimaginable, the unattainable things that i cant cope with.
but it's not my fault, i never knew another way. but im still stranded.
what can i do honestly now that i've seen that there is no way out and the habits i thought were just habits are actually buried deep inside the bone so that i can never escape them or be saved from them.

why do i cringe, why do i run, why cant i just stop and chill for one second. why do i always feel like staying will destroy me when running is helping no better.